How long is enough time?

Do you ever have this feeling of wondering why you seem to owe everyone an explanation for being happy just because your happiness came in suddenly, unexpectedly?

Although I know my family and friends are happy for me, I still get a little hurt from the occasional doubts here and there, from candid reactions that make me think how some people see me -- easy, impulsive and gullible. I do understand that they are just concerned about me, cautious about me falling for the same pit I seem to be falling into for the past years. Indeed, my track record does not do me justice. Well, I really do not believe that there is something wrong with easily giving my trust, I still believe I should not change myself for that. I think the wrong I did was that I had been too transparent to everyone. I shared every little thing -- I met this guy, I think he's great, I'm happy...then when he turns out to be a jerk, I have to face everyone for that and eat back all of the good things I've said. And just because I was single, each man I go out with, everyone thinks was a potential romantic love. Couldn't a single woman go out with a man as acquaintances or friends? I have my own reasons for hanging out with people and socializing: because I want to have many friends and in some cases because I think this man needs a friend.

I just wish that everyone trust me this time. I did not make a hasty decision. Things happened in a most natural way, and I do believe because it was meant to be. I do understand and appreciate your concerns but really, I do think I'm mature enough. To know someone is not at all just about time, rather, how one is willing to show his real side. You can spend years and decades being with someone but not knowing who he really is. On the other hand, you can spend one magical week with someone sincere and know that you want to spend the rest of your life discovering and loving him more each day.

I tell myself right now that time is not yet on my side. This is all just a matter of time. In a few months, I could look back on this, smile and say, See?