Day 10

Do you believe that some bad news can actually be part of a big plan for you that ends up with good news?

Today I received a sad news although I could say it really didn't affect me that much anymore, since I saw it coming and also because somehow, something told me that it could be a blessing in disguise. I don't know why I could even think it might be that way, either my instincts are telling me right or perhaps it is just my way of trying to see the bright side of everything.

Whatever it may be though, I hope that next week, I will not have a broken heart.

Here's to not giving up hope...

I'm wondering

Should I mark this day?

Because if it works out, this day shall bring the greatest gift of my life.

And since I want to think positive and I have a good feeling, I think I should.

There.

Then now I am going to stop thinking about it until the day we know the certainty.

Say a little prayer for me, please.

Wrong shoes but don't stop

I had been jogging last night for about a kilometer when I noticed that something's different with my jog, it felt like my feet were heavier than usual. Looking down at my feet, I finally realized that I absentmindedly wore my tennis shoes instead of my running shoes (yes there is a big difference :). Of course, there was no more turning back at that point so I decided to just brisk walk my way back.

Isn't life like that? You sometimes find yourself making innocent mistakes along the way but it shouldn't let you stop the journey, instead, just make the most out of it.

Move on

I've got two major things to start this year.

The first thing is something that already happened last year but which didn't work out and caused me some great emotional and mental trauma. So going through it again makes me want to say "here we go again" but since I want to keep a positive outlook, I try to say "maybe this is the time" instead.

The second thing is something I've been wanting to do for a long time but which I could only do now because now I feel it is the right time for it. Thinking about it happening gives me that exciting feeling of butterflies in my stomach, a familiar feeling that makes me feel alive.

Both things will define a new chapter of my life and although the first thing is actually my greatest dream right now, it is the second thing that I invest more feelings at because of the uncertainty that the first thing has and I don't want to have my hopes up. Rather, I'd like to treat the first thing as a bonus if it happens as obsessing about it has made me put my life on hold and I shouldn't anymore do that. The second thing, at least, is something I have some control of.

So there, that's me moving on and hopefully, this brings me to where I want to be, and that is, where I'll be happy.

Starting 2012 positively

1) Move on.
2) Talk to God more.
3) Sleep early (and wake up early).
4) Say more good things (and if it's bad, just don't say it!)
5) Do at least one good deed a day.
6) Give more to charity.
7) Organize.
8) Floss.
9) Cook more at home and eat out less.
10) Significantly reduce my caffeine intake.
11) Bring my running shoes on my travels.
12) Write.